Grief & the Fixed Star Algol

The Debate - WTF?

I started writing this post last weekend but didn’t know where to take it until last night. Here’s the piece I started:

“About two weeks ago, I decided to try listening to a binaural beat. If you are unfamiliar with this idea, it comes from research done at the Monroe Institute.

Robert Monroe was a prolific out-of-body experiencer (OBE) and a radio station magnate. In the 1950s, he listened to a tape that was supposed to help you learn while you slept and found himself out of his body. From that point, the floodgates opened, and it became his norm. Being a Westerner with an engineering background, he was confused about the experiences. He tried to do his own research on the subject….

I put my headphones on before going to sleep and listened to the music, and tears started streaming down my face. The grief I felt was immense. It was as if the wall I had built had fallen. All the grief and loss in the future I have been trying to avoid came rushing in. Once I experienced it, I couldn’t stop. Less than a week later, I “taught” the psy development class, and several psychics brought up their feelings of immense grief. They, too, had felt a wave of it; some felt it in the class-guided archetypal meditation, and others had felt it starting several days before. I suppose you could argue that since we are all working together, maybe they were picking up on my grief, but I don’t think so. They described it very much as I felt it: a wave or wall of sadness in the future. “